Some news...here and there

Weeeellll....here we go again...after 1 month of absency...Im back in this cyber world diary typing...

Actually I dont have that much time to type this things...since I have a whoooole lot thing to do...I didnt prayed maghrib and Isya yet....again...Im making late of my prayers....consistency is a damn thing hard to do isnt it...? Well at least Im trying my best not to miss any single prayer...how late am I doing it....

Hmmm...I just want to divide this blog now into several parts....

the first part is about my love life...how is it going my relationship between me and women surrounding me....the women that caught me...and the women that is stabil on its existence in my mind...

Hmmm...about my love life....I really couldnt tell much about this...since my feeling is not that confident towards this...but as far as I can describe...seems Im more getting on who she really is....something that I feel in my heart...that youre so true...whoops, thats was the lyrics of Metal Gear Solid 3 soundtrack!..hahahha....but really, what I meant true in this statement is that she really is becoming someone that stabil in my heart....she always being someone that I missed...at times that really I dont expect it before that it would come...and her presence within me is really in a state that I am missing her....even though it is on a small amount...but she is ver rarely cease to exist within my me....is this a sign...? I dont know...but in my opinion...it maybe is....well, wallahualam....but think of it if it is true...than what is the best way for me to her...? Just being directly propose...? Or still waiting for the others...? Just to make sure that Im confident...? Gee...I really am curious....maybe this is also I havent made the istikarah prayer yet...that is probably the key to my confuse....but stubbornly I kept on havent doing that...lousy and lame for me...hmmm Im also thinking how should we run life together in the future....well, wether she will come to Japan or not is one key on trying to make the next step....well, if she really is gonna be in Japan....than I would think on founding a house for us...and Ill be busying myself with part time jobs also....hence, if Japan is not with her...than I should be patient till Im graduate...and perhaps return back home....well, guess that is quite still far away....and I havent confident yet about this...still fixing the puzzle here and there....havent got the whole picture yet....

well...about my academic life...thank God seems Allah had answered my prayers...Im beginning to like on studying about academic subjects in here....and that also including japanese....but seems that it is a bit too late...well, not besides Japanese though...Im striving to gain a good result I guess...trying to improve my academic life...being more active...about Japanese....well, I dont what I actually have to run it...between just let it fail....still fighting with expecting a fail...or being ganbatte with all I got for a pass....I want to head for the last one...but....seems it is not that easy....aaah...thats the spirit I havent got...seems its just on going with the process...

Ohya....Im failing also on the Presidential Election of APUIna....well, guess it is a sign that Im not acquainted for the job....there are things more best for me according to Allah...

and lately I was being asked to held presentation to Japanese high school with nihon go...again...Im kinda refuse the job because my inabilites for Japanese....Im still not that good....or should I do it...forcing myself...? Damn...Im still stuck in this dilemmatic world of mine....when can I actually be confident on making decisions...kana....

Oh well...seems whining is not gonna solve things....I still have to do many things in the limited time available....

till the next log...

cheers!